You guys, no one has ever blown anything harder than I blew the Morninggloryville sober rave this morning. I’ve been looking forward to that party for a month now, I bought a ticket and laid out my finest dolphin legging/neon sneaker combo. Then I didn’t go because I got too party at an impromptu weeknight social affair. This experience is revealing some profound truths about my reality and the choices I’m making, and although I’m having a GREAT time, this isn’t who I want to be.
San Francisco is a crazy place, things happen to me in this city that I can’t explain here without my mom getting really scared, but suffice it to say it’s some next level shit. You see me on my blog calling out little kids who take way too many drugs and lose control, then here I am doing the exact same thing on a Tuesday night cause I got caught up in the hype. Ironically, this is happening the night before I’m supposed to be reporting live at 6 am from Morninggloryville. God fucking dammit.
But I’m laughing at myself because this is what had to happen for me to finally See, even though I already wrote this story in my freshly-printed novel. At the bottom of the swirling-adult-champagne-cuddle-puddle I was in last night, pressed up against tons of beautiful people howling in a cacophony of extreme personalities, I knew this state of interconnectedness and pure bliss is totally achievable sober. I know this in my heart, but I haven’t proven it yet. And who am I to talk all this talk and just abandon the walk anytime the turn-up gets too real? That’s lame AF.
And what better moment in my life-story to decide I need to give sobriety a real try than missing the sober weekday rave cause I was too drunk and on drugs? This is the perfect segway. I feel I’ve got to prove it to myself and to all you beautiful people, the drugs really are in your mind. If you want to party down with me, I suggest you do it before the end of the year: 2015 is amping up to be substance-free.
This is an adventure I know will elevate my being and goal realization to a life-changing level. Stay tuned to bear witness to the greatest raving adventure of all time, a true odyssey to parts unknown. My experiment operates with the hypothesis that a daily dose of mind-altering psychedelic euphoria can be achieved without drugs of any kind, I want to be the weirdest person at the party helping everyone reach the most gorgeous states of being by just projecting the intention. I can and I will be. Whether you’re rooting for me to succeed or fail, keep watch cause it’s about to Get Real.